Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Stronger

*First, let me say the reason I didn't keep up with the blog postings everyday is because the internet in Tim's room wasn't reliable and he couldn't see the pictures or the videos.  So instead I texted him pictures and was able to talk to him enough to fill him in on our daily goings on.*

With Tim having been gone for 5 weeks it gave me time to find out more about myself.  I've never been "on my own".  I lived at home for 18 years, went to college, started dating Tim, got married, moved away, and had a baby.  None of that was done on my own.  I am not an independent person.  I rely on Tim for almost everything.  He is my emotional support.  He is my idea-bouncer-offer.  He makes our decisions.  He makes the money.  He is my everything.  My everything was gone for an entire 5 weeks.
I found out in that 5 weeks that I am strong.  I can do things I never thought I could.  I am able to find my way around a new city.  I am able to take care of a baby without any help.  I am able to set up a new home.  I am able to drive 2 12 hour trips, a 10 hour trip, and a 3 hour trip all with an infant.  I am able to juggle a baby in a carrier, 7 bags of groceries, a diaper bag, a diet coke, and the mail all up 3 flights of stairs.  I am able to fly all by myself with a baby, handle a layover during nap time, rent a car and drive 2 hours.  I can do it and I DID do it.  I didn't do it without shedding any tears, but I did it.
Something that I didn't realize would happen was the peace and assurance Tim felt when he found out I could handle it on my own.  He can see the difference in me.  I'm not scared.  I don't ask for as much help.  I don't get as overwhelmed.  I am a different woman.  A stronger woman.  It's a good thing I discovered this early on because as a military wife, this will not be the only time I will have to do this and, chances are, this was the shortest period of time I will have to do it.  But Tim can now leave when he is called and know that I can handle the task of running our home and our family while he's gone.

All that being said, I'm glad my everything is back home!

3 comments:

Josh and Catie said...

I can't imagine having to do what you did. I am so proud of you and even more happy that it is over!!! God never gives us more than we can handle, although that is hard to believe sometimes. Love you!

Elizabeth said...

Hey Randi -

I read your blog, but I had fallen behind. Now I'm all caught up and I wanted to tell you.. the next time you're in Alabama let me know! I live in Birmingham! I could have helped you out (and maybe you wouldn't have had to rent a car!). I'm glad you did it on your own. It's gratifying when you know you're self-sufficient. :) Congratulations on everything!

Stefanie said...

Way to go, Randi! You had a bootcamp of your own! You're going to be such a good example & encouragement to other military wives!